Missing the old times

Yesterday while I really feel sick I suddenly think of the old times. The time when everyday is like Friday hang around with my friends at W grill, Starbucks or to where ever place we can spend our time catching up with each other lives. I also miss the time when I used to sleep at a different house going home by morning just to take a bath and go to work even if I’m dog tired. I know that’s the part of my life that I’m being rebellious because of different situation I’ve been to. I will not elaborate further hehehe…however those trying times in my life made me realize that I can stand on my own feet and make my own decisions in life. I miss those times I went out of town without asking permission to my parents and not even replying to their messages or calls. I miss those times that I only went home to sleep but not to talk to anyone in the house. I really want to be independent but I guess I need to stick with them for financial reasons. You know even I’m bad at times I still don’t forget the responsibilities I have. I remember that someone who supported me on those trials I had. I know he comforted and changed me to become a better person now. I miss those times I lied that I have Saturday work and that someone would fetch me around 8 in the morning so that my family won’t doubt that I’m not working instead I will stay in their house and watch as many DVD and Korean novellas I can until I’m tired and will go home. I miss going out even on Sundays.

Right now everything feels like a routine. I wake up early morning take a bath prepare for work and will work until 6 then will meet someone will have movie, dinner or coffee then will stroll a little and will go home around 10 or 11 and then sleep.

I want something different really…



[sorry this is just a random thought]

ako yata yun

Minsan naiisip ko ako yata ang nagdadala ng malas sa isang tao. Ewan ko ba ndi eto ang unang beses na nangyare at napunta ko sa ganitong sitwasyon. Ayaw ko man isipin pero bakit di ba? Ako nga ba ang dahilan ng kamalasan nila? Wala naman akong ni isang balat sa katawan lalo na sa pwet pero bakit?

Nakakasawa na napapagod na rin ako… ndi ko na nga alam kung anung direksyon ako pupunta pero isa lang ang sigurado ako, nakakapagod talaga. Minsan kahit pilitin mong isipin na para sa kabutihan ko din naman lahat ito, nde rin eh ndi ko ma enjoy ang lahat ng bagay. Gustong gusto ko na talaga gumive up kung bibigyan lang ako ng pagkakataon eh di sana iba ang way na pipiliin ko.

Pahinga muna ko..

'am a little frustrated...

Something came up that makes me a little frustrated but I shouldn’t be. I know this will happen and I thought I’m okay with that but even though I set my mind for this to happen a little frustration still knocks on me. I always look forward to weekend because it is for spending time with yourself, your family, your friends and your someone. I thought it would be different this time… well I need to think of another plan, I don’t want to spend the day alone at home. Oh I remember I have work on Saturday that’s going to be it I guess. Tsk tsk…

ako?

marameng tao ang nakakapansin.. blooming daw ako...
ganun siguro talaga kapag in love ka!
:)


hay sana hindi na matapos yung ganitong feeling... ang saya lang! :D